It seems I've loved you forever, even though we only just met.
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Friday, September 9, 2022
In My cocoon
In My Cocoon
I feel like I’m stuck in my
cocoon,
growing, getting stronger,
learning how to cope, but I want to
get out.
I want to be free,
to live without regrets, without
confusion, without the pains of life and love.
I push and pull at all the
strings.
I kick and scream, hoping to break
through.
I cry, I laugh, I talk to
myself.
In the end, all will be okay.
I know that.
My Sunglasses On
I think I
will leave
my sunglasses,
on today.
I don’t want anyone
to see my eyes
to ask what’s wrong.
Have I been crying
or am I just stoned
as hell?
Is my heart broken
or am I in the bliss
of this highness,
that hides my true self?
Either way,
What’s important is,
I know the truth.
I think I will leave my
sunglasses,
on today.
~terri otterman
Monday, September 5, 2022
I find myself on an emotional roller coaster, these past few months. Sometimes I’m super happy, others I just don’t know what the future holds. I know it’s not for me to figure out. I know that whatever will be, will be. Does that make this ride any easier? Absolutely not. What it does is show me, over and over again that I am not in control, nor do I really want to be. Life is hard. Happiness, is even harder to find these days. I trust God. I know where my strength comes from, but it’s still hard. Wrestling with “what if’s, I should of’s, and maybe next time”, are real matches that we deal with everyday. You are no different than I am. Admit it, you have those wars too. All I can say is this life is only temporary. We may not get to the place our heart desires here on earth. One thing is for sure, “life is short and eternity isn’t.” My prayer is this, even if we never meet here on Earth, that one day we will meet in the life ever after, in the place set apart for those who believe in the One true God and Savior. I hope I see you beyond those Golden Gates, in the place where no more sorrows, no more tears, and no more loneliness, will be. In the place where true happiness resides. ~terri otterman
Saturday, September 3, 2022
Friday, August 26, 2022
Stay innocent little one,
at least, for one more day.
Let me hold you tightly,
please don’t run away.
In the blink of an eye,
things can change.
I’ll cherish these days,
as long as I can.
One day soon,
you’ll let go of my hand,
before we know it,
you’ll be a grown man.
When that day comes,
remember these truths,
I will still be your mom,
and I will always love you.
~terri otterman
Thursday, August 25, 2022
The Way
The Way
the way your voice dances in my ears,
the way your smile lights up my eyes,
the way your touch tickles my senses,
the way your arms wrap around my body,
the way…….I love that.
Sunday, August 21, 2022
Have you ever found yourself saying, “It ended as quickly as it began. All the promises, all the words, are as if they were never spoken”? When love is rushed, it parts too quickly. We live in a fast world where everything is wanted now. Relationships must be built, and quite often the building process is a slow one. People must take the time to get to know each other. One might think they don’t have time, the grass is growing under their feet, I’m coming to the end of their life, but those things shouldn’t matter. One good year is far better than two unhappy ones. Why live unhappy? If not built correctly, love will only fall to the ground, destroying one or both partners. Relationships require love and respect. Some people may not want or care to be respected, but many do. Some people don’t care about love and friendship, but there are those “hopeless romantics”, like myself, still out there. Love requires gentleness, quietness, caressing, caring, understanding, and knowing that if one is hurt, the other will be there to comfort, not condemn. Love is a promise that states, “I’ve got your back, I’m in for the long haul.” Love is not selfish, and likewise, not selfless. Love is two people on a journey together, that don’t always enjoy the ride, but know it’s worth their time and efforts. Love can be everything you’ve dreamt of and much more. It can also include things that are not fun, but because both partners care, they are willing to work on their differences. Love isn’t always beautiful fireworks, and great sex. Quite often, those are just fantasy dreams, that rarely turn out as expected. Love is hard. Love is the one blessing most people long for, most need, but never find. When you find it, grab it, true love is rare. Hold it, nurture it, do whatever it takes to keep it. Wrap your arms around it and never let it go. It will take great sacrifices, but in the end, it will be worth it. ~terri otterman
Thursday, August 18, 2022
In my quiet space is where I find my peace, my solace, sometimes my stress. I do my best thinking or my worst, it all depends on the topic at hand, whether positive or negative, Nevertheless, it helps me get things off my chest, to throw them away, or move them to a safe place, maybe to revisit later. Anyway, it seems strange to me, seeing as I’m not a person that desires or likes to be alone, that it can be actually refreshing and freeing at times. To sit quietly and let my mind wander, with no disruptions, no noise, no interference, allows me to really search my heart, to find answers, to dig deeply into the things that really matter. This, is much needed. If you think about it, quiet is really good for the soul, everyone needs it, whether they admit they do, or not.
~terri otterman
Wednesday, August 17, 2022
If I kiss
you
or want to,
it’s because
there is a special
kind of love
inside my heart for you.
It doesn’t mean
I’m “in love” with you
or that I desire
wild crazy adventures
with you.
It may mean
I have a special spot
in my heart for you,
and depending on
the type of kiss,
that may be open
for discussion
another time.
Wednesday, August 10, 2022
First day of
Fifth grade…
Before you were born, you were
thought of, before you were conceived, God was thinking of me.
Sometimes I wonder where you came
from,
then your smile reminds me, you came
from above.
The thought, the consideration, that
went into your being, totally amazes me.
In a blink of an eye, you were
created, just for me.
Many times, the plan seems so
unreal,
but our Creator, knew exactly what
He was doing. He knew how I’d feel; this day, this time, during this life of
mine.
I love you with all my heart, more
than I ever thought I could.
Right from the start, when I laid
eyes on you,
I knew, I would. ~to
Monday, August 1, 2022
Monday, July 4, 2022
As you Fall Apart
Life is good,
but it’s not the same.
Love is Lost,
the pain remains.
Happiness strives,
everyday.
Thankful for the gift
of being alive.
Life is good,
but it’s not the same.
Love is lost,
the pain remains.
I live each day,
with a smiling heart,
I won’t let
the best of me,
fall apart.
Life is good,
but it’s not the same.
Love is lost,
the pain remains.
Memories remind me,
of places we’ve been.
Dreams pretend,
you are coming
back again.
Life is good,
but it’s not the same.
Love is lost,
the pain remains.
It’s tough
being strong,
as you fall apart.
Friday, July 1, 2022
Stop
Stop worrying,
stop thinking,
stop calling,
stop asking,
-let it go.
But,
never-stop-caring.
that,
my friend,
shows
the true depth,
of your heart.
Tuesday, June 21, 2022
What A Fool I’ve Been
What a fool I’ve been
Reaching out to you
So many times
And you not responding
Hopelessly in love
Running after
One that
can never be touched
What a nightmare
I’ve built for myself
Putting you on a pedestal
High up on the shelf
What a heartbreak
You don’t even see me
The depths of my soul ache
And you are unaware
What a mixed up girl
Trying to find her way
Thinking things
would finally turn
That this
would be the day
What a fool I’ve been.
Saturday, June 18, 2022
The Player
I don’t want
to see you
anymore.
I’m hurt
I’m crushed
I’m angry
I’m torn.
I know,
I’m not
the only one,
that’s been
played on
by you.
I just wish
this didn’t
happen to us.
Will this pain ever end?
Will my heart ever mend?
I don’t know the answers.
It feels like
a terrible disease
eating at my bones.
My mind,
my heart,
haven’t stopped
hurting
since
we’ve been apart.
I try to dream
of happy things,
but all
I want to do,
is scream.
Saturday, June 11, 2022
Be There
Be a good friend
it's important.
Be a nice neighbor
it's expected.
Being there when
someone needs you
is a precious gift
from your heart.
Be there.
Show you care.
~terri otterman
In My Dreams
I stopped hearing your voice,
I stopped smelling your smell,
I stopped seeing your face,
Suddenly, I closed my eyes,
and there you were,
once again…in my dreams.
~terri otterman
Friday, June 10, 2022
Happiness
S elfless
E asy
C aring
R espectful
E mpathetic
T hankful
T rustworthy
O ptimistic
A mbitious
G racious
E legant
N ice
U nique
I mpressive
N urturing
E lectrifying
L oveliness
I ntriguing
F orgiving
E ncouraging
O utstanding
F riendly
H elpful
A mazing
P eaceful
P atient
I nspirational
N atural
E nergetic
S trong
S entimental
Add these and make it even better!
Kind
Loving
Respectful
Giving
Wednesday, May 25, 2022
Between me and me
My head is spinning,
out of control,
with pleasant
thoughts of you.
This room
is floating in circles,
I can’t make it stop.
My mind replays
over and over,
the things that you said.
Your words
radiate so loud,
I can’t turn them
down.
I care for you
abundantly.
You know how to
light up my life.
You are silly,
yet so full of excitement.
I am still crazy
about you.
But, that is
between
me and me.
Tuesday, May 24, 2022
Sunday, May 22, 2022
Just Believe
Life is bigger
Than that big ocean
And it’s waves,
Little one
Don’t let life’s troubles
knock you down.
You have what it takes,
to overcome.
The greatest,
darkest battles,
cannot drown you.
Stand strong in victory.
Your God,
is always with you!
He’s your life guard,
your rescue,
the One,
that will never leave you!
Just believe.
~terri otterman