I've Loved You Forever

It seems I've loved you  forever, even though we only just met. 

In My cocoon

 In My Cocoon 

 

I feel like I’m stuck in my cocoon, 

growing, getting stronger, 

learning how to cope, but I want to get out. 

I want to be free, 

to live without regrets, without confusion, without the pains of life and love. 

I push and pull at all the strings. 

I kick and scream, hoping to break through. 

I cry, I laugh, I talk to myself. 

In the end, all will be okay. 

I know that. 

I just want to be free.

My Sunglasses On

I think I will leave 

my sunglasses, 

on today. 

I don’t want anyone 

to see my eyes

to ask what’s wrong. 

Have I been crying 

or am I just stoned 

as hell? 

Is my heart broken 

or am I in the bliss 

of this highness, 

that hides my true self? 

Either way, 

What’s important is, 

I know the truth. 

I think I will leave my sunglasses, 

on today.

~terri otterman

 

 

If being strong means hiding your thoughts, feelings, and tears, 

then I’d rather be weak. 

It may not be what everyone wants these days,  

but I like honesty. ~terri otterman

 I find myself on an emotional roller coaster, these past few months. Sometimes I’m super happy, others I just don’t know what the future holds. I know it’s not for me to figure out. I know that whatever will be, will be. Does that make this ride any easier? Absolutely not. What it does is show me, over and over again that I am not in control, nor do I really want to be. Life is hard. Happiness, is even harder to find these days. I trust God. I know where my strength comes from, but it’s still hard. Wrestling with “what if’s, I should of’s, and maybe next time”, are real matches that we deal with everyday. You are no different than I am. Admit it, you have those wars too. All I can say is this life is only temporary. We may not get to the place our heart desires here on earth. One thing is for sure, “life is short and eternity isn’t.” My prayer is this, even if we never meet here on Earth, that one day we will meet in the life ever after, in the place set apart for those who believe in the One true God and Savior. I hope I see you beyond those Golden Gates, in the place where no more sorrows, no more tears, and no more loneliness, will be. In the place where true happiness resides. ~terri otterman

 

 

I love life, 

I love Brandon, 

I love my family, 

I love God and Jesus 

but I must be honest,

I question him daily. 

Why??  

What were you thinking? 

What now? 

I’m human and you need to know that. 

Yes, I know all things will work out. 

But the pain…..

sometimes is hard 

to bear. ❤️