Let go

 I’ve always 

been a believer 

in what’s 

meant to be

will be

there comes a time 

when you 

must let go 

of things 

in your life

good and bad 

in order to live

~Terri Otterman

Still Goin Crazy

just friends 

high school pals

you never knew 

you stole 

my heart 

way back then 

and today

this girl is 

still

goin crazy

there’s 

something 

about you 

can’t figure 

it out 

maybe your

hair

good looks

or smile

maybe 

all three

got me

whatever it is

you got 

this girl 

still

goin crazy

just 16 

full of life, 

what to do

my world was

totally 

wrapped  up 

in you 

even today 

many years 

later 

the feeling

remains

the same

you still 

got this girl 

goin crazy

I’m just

still

goin crazy 

I’m just

still

goin crazy

over you

Blessed Woman

 25 years ago, I wore the dress. I think my body has changed, just  a little. And yes, I have to admit, I couldn’t get the back zipped. Enough of those useless statements. 😞

25 years ago, I married a man who loved me just as I am. He overlooked all my faults and failures and loved me unconditionally. I didn’t deserve that kind of love, yet God saw that it was good and brought us together. During the hardest times, he kept us strong, strong for each other. I’m not writing this for pity. I’m writing this because once in a lifetime,  dreams can come true. I married a man who was selfless. He married me with 4 young children. He gave all he could to us, even until the end. I’m not sad and balling here today (but I’d be lying if I told you I’m overjoyed). I’m reminiscing on the good love that we had together. It was far from perfect, because we were/are not perfect. We had difficult times just like most marriages/relationships, but we endured. We chose not to let those times tear us apart (believe me they tried). What I’m trying to say is, I am one blessed woman. Blessed to have been able to share life with such an amazing man. Will I ever meet another Jim? Probably not. But that doesn’t mean I won’t meet someone just as wonderful. They are out there. For many, unfortunately they never meet another love of their life. Should God desire a new love  for me (and Brandon), I am willing. But if not, I will learn to be content. After all, He is in control of my life, not me. I surrender all. ❤️

You loved me

 … you loved me

you held me 

in your arms 

you calmed my pain

you held me so tight

I felt loved again

you gave me

a piece of you

I didn’t deserve

how can I ever 

repay you 

for the 

beautiful way

you loved me?

How many times have we wondered, even asked ourselves, why does he love me? I’m a red hot mess, how could anyone love me like that?

Only for a little while

dear glass of wine

thank you 

for being 

a friend of mine

your taste is sweet 

but a little tart, 

your magic heals 

my broken heart

but only,

for a little while.

thank you for 

helping me

erase the pain, 

forget my past

and dream again. 

you make me happy

you help me smile

but only 

for a little while

you go down smooth

you tickle my tongue

my head to spins 

my heart pounds

your poison 

lays me down

quietly, 

I fall off to sleep

I’m happy again,

but only 

for a little while.

Crazy feelings

I get these 

crazy feelings,

feelings

I  can’t control

they’ve been known 

to chase 

people away

these crazy feelings

they are good 

at doing that

ever since 

our eyes met

my heart 

hasn’t skipped

a beat

you know 

how it feels  

I can’t change 

the way I feel

and what

it’s doing to me

the way you've 

captured me 

is beyond

my control

I’m not saying 

it’s love 

I’m not sure 

what it is

maybe it’s just 

an innocent 

crush

maybe 

it’s my 

imagination 

playing tricks 

on me

I’ve begged, 

my creator 

to take 

them away 

to stop

the emotions 

of my heart

Nevertheless,

they remain

is this another 

hard lesson

to learn

I can't help

but wonder

if you feel it too

heart be still

slow down 

tonight

the timing

is just 

not right

tonight

maybe 

It never

will be

if one day 

you find 

yourself 

with crazy 

feelings 

for me 

like I have 

for you

I hope 

you have

the courage

to tell me

so we can

stop

these

crazy feelings.

Begin Without Me

 

Begin the change,

remove the doubts.

begin to smile,

no more frowns.

begin your journey,

(it's okay) without me.

begin your life,

it's time to live.

Just remember,

I'll always be,

somewhere 

deep

inside 

your heart.