It’s in your heart

You fight it off

You know 

it’s real. 

You just 

can’t help it

it's in your heart

You feel as if

you're ready

again 

to love someone 

more than a friend

but maybe 

it’s not time yet

you feel guilty 

for this feeling 

you can’t control

you wonder 

what will 

happen

 if you let 

someone in

even if

he doesn't 

feel the same 

it doesn’t matter

you feel it

you pray

God help me

take it away

then you remember

praying before

and He didn’t 

rather

He blessed you 

in the biggest 

possible way

do you feel 

He can’t 

bless you again

trust Him 

He knows 

what’s in  

your heart

The Struggle

 You struggle with thoughts....

Not good ones.

you fight with

ones that hurt

cut deeply,

scar forever.

you beg your mind 

please stop!

but it won't.

you cry, 

you scream,

you close your eyes.

the nightmares

will not leave.

you pray

and God

meets you 

where you are.

you find peace,

you finally 

fall asleep.

Don’t Be Afraid

 Don’t be afraid to ask her out, 

she might be praying that you do. 

Don’t be afraid to call her up, 

she might be dialing your number too. 

Don’t be afraid to touch her hand, 

Your touch mind mend her broken heart.

Don’t be afraid to smile at her, 

Your smile might be 

just what she needs. 

Don’t be afraid….

Why would I not trust Him again?

 This has been an amazing week! Probably the best I’ve had since we moved back to STA. Things are falling into place for us, it seems. God is so good. I met a few new friends and caught up with some old ones ;) this week.   Took a drive to Flagler Beach and  rode up the coast back to STA; reminiscing, thinking, sorting, praying, and yes shedding some tears;  something I’ve been needing to do since we moved  back. This weekend we went to the old Town Market,  and a church service at Cathedral Basilica, visited a cozy French bakery, walked the Bayfront, and ran into some friends from Blowing Rock!💞What a nice surprise! We finally made it to the Cathedral Festival, something we’ve never done before. Afterwards, I relaxed on Vilano Beach while Brandon ran the waves with friends. I can honestly say, my heart has been well lately. I have been visiting places that  hold many precious memories. Doing this is helping me heal. I know that my journey is not yet over. I will have good days and maybe even some difficult ones. But I know that God has a plan. One that He has ordained. One that only He can fulfill. He loves me and knows my true heart. He knows my every desire and need. And He cares about every one. Scripture tells us: 

“cast your cares on him because he cares for you”. 

I know He does. He has proven this promise to me so many times. Why would I not trust Him again? 

Let’s talk

 This is the year 

Wow, this is the year, the one in which I turn 62!  I can't believe I've made it this far. Not that I ever doubted I would, it's just that so many friends, family members, and co-workers over the years have passed on to their final destiny. They say only the good die young. Well, I guess I must still need time to become my best.

Maybe another way to look at my still being here is one that, I must have more to do, more people to reach, more life to live, and more love to share. I'm okay with that. I just pray, that with the world as it is today, I can remain strong and be the woman I am supposed to be. I pray that I can love with the love that is the truth, the one that knows no hatred, knows no color, and sees only the good in others. As difficult as it seems, I know with Christ, I can do all things.

Each day is an opportunity to share, and receive love. Every moment is an opportunity to be better than you were yesterday. 

John 13:34 says: "A new commandment I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another."

Ephesians 4:2 says: "Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love."

When you love one another , the evidence of that love shows in your all you do. Your words are more gentle.  you place the needs of the one you love above your own. The way you look at them and hug  them is evidence of that fact.

My husband was that kind of person. My sisters and friends would always point out how they could see how much he loved me through his actions. and the way he treated me. I can only hope I treated him just as well, most of the time.

Let's face it, we are not perfect humans. We all fall short at times. But it's up to us, even as we age, to be better to one another than we were before. After all, that is  real love.

"Remember what used to be, but cling to what is to come. We all have a destiny, we all have a journey, make yours count."

Let's talk,

 I’ve always been one to care for myself, not necessarily nails and pedis but my face and skin, yes.  As I am aging I notice care is a more difficult task. Skin is dryer, weight harder to lose, and yes, my emotions are more sensitive. I guess it’s because I’ve lost more loved ones than I care to believe, and my time too is running out. It’s important to remember, that our time is not over until God says it is. That our days are numbered, God’s  word tells us they are.

Psalm 139:16 states: “your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.” NIV 

None of us really know when we will take our last breath, and what if we did? Would we then make each day count all the more? Would we love deeper and care harder? Why not begin today? We are not promised tomorrow on this earth. But one thing is for sure, as believers, we are promised Eternity. 

Let’s Talk.

 

If you keep searching for your heart's desire 

way out there, 

you probably won't find it.

Chances are, 

it's already within your reach.

 It's been a long journey, one that I wasn't prepared to take, one that I hope I never have to go on again.

Though my heart is healing and my mind clearing, I know this journey isn't over, just yet.

I trust that tomorrow will be better, and the next, and the next,

because my faith is big and I know you hold my whole life in 

your hands.

Each day is a new opportunity to grow, to feel, to love, and to share all that you have given me.

Lord I pray that you bring those to my life that will allow me to do just that.

There is so much love in my heart that needs to be shared.

I need the courage to show I care.

I've been broken and reaching out these days is difficult.

I'm ready, I just need to know where to begin.